BABY TIME!!!!!!

we are having a baby!!!!! and we are soooo excited! I thought that once this time came i would be better at the whole blogging thing but turns out that is not the case considering i am over halfway and this is my first post. lets start at the beginning shall we..... October 1st 2012 we decided that we would start trying. we were ready for a baby as our 2nd anniversary was approaching in April! Well turns out we are very lucky and very fertile and we were pregnant in November. We decided that we would wait to tell our families until Christmas when we were about 8 weeks because it would be the best Christmas present for all of them! The day came and it was the best surprise ever just like we thought it would be. Everyone was crying and we officially gave the best present! it would be an understatement to say that we were excited!!! we were soooo excited, Scottie had wanted kids since the day we got married and probably before that so he was stoked and we were both super happy! our second appointment was the 27th, 2 days after Christmas and we were excited to get our first ultrasound and see the little bean in there. We went to the ultrasound and of course before we went i had been researching for weeks what we should be seeing at that point so i knew exactly what it was supposed to look like. We got all situated in the room and were anxiously awaiting the images i had been seeing all over Google for our baby at 8 weeks. To our disappointment we did not see anything that i had been hoping to see. The ultrasound tech showed us around and didn't say anything to us really i thought it was kinda weird that she wasn't pointing out anything and after only like 5 min she said she was done and had me tell the front desk i was ready for my follow up appointment that i had not even scheduled. With this being our first time with the whole pregnancy thing i still had high hopes that our baby was just too small to see and maybe i just wasn't as far along as i thought i was, but the longer we waited in the waiting room the more and more anxious I got. So they called us into the room and told us our midwife would be with us soon. I could feel my face getting hot and my eyes welling up even though I thought everything was fine, in the back of my head i knew something was not right. Scottie was really calm and just kept telling me we needed not to think anything was wrong until they actually told us that and we could go from there. so soon enough the doc came in and sure enough she told me that i had miscarried. I was in disbelief. why and how did this happen? I am healthy and young how did i have a miscarriage? Scottie immediately grabbed my hand and we both held it together really well while she went on telling us what the next steps were going to be, and gave me my prescriptions. she told us that it was very normal and that one in 3 women miscarry and tried to make me feel better. We walked out of the office with a lot less bounce than we had coming in and rode down the elevator and to the car without saying much to each other. i think we were just trying to take in all in. Scottie was just squeezing me tight and kept giving me hugs and squeezing my hand. once we got to the car i broke down!!! I was very sad and disappointed and just in shock i think. Scottie was very good and stayed really calm and talked me through everything. I could not be more grateful for him and the support he gives me. so they gave me pills to make everything come out and lets just say that was not a good time. fast forward a couple months cuz it took forever for my blood numbers to get back to normal and it wasn't until Feb 28th that i had my first normal period again!!! normally it doesn't take that long i guess but it took a while for me. they told us to wait two cycles to get pregnant again but that was forever so after the first one it was on and 2 weeks later..... positive pregnancy test once more!!!!!!!!
          I am soooo grateful to be able to get pregnant easily and i do not take it for granted for i have known so many women that have had a hard time with that and i know it is such a blessing!!! let me tell you it was a whole different experience this time around. we were soo super excited but also very very nervous about everything going right. we told our parents the day that we found out, no reason to keep it in this time. We had a really early ultrasound this time to make sure that everything was forming like it needed to and they said everything looked good. I took my sister Alisabeth to this one cuz she was leaving on her mission that next week and i wanted her to  feel like she was apart of it before she left. We had another ultrasound at 9 weeks and saw the heartbeat and the little tiny baby it was so awesome!!!! we felt much better after seeing that but were still anxious until we reached the 12 week mark!!! we feel very blessed to be able to be pregnant and it sure is an amazing experience sick or not! mommy and daddy here we come!!!!!